We are desire. It is the essence of the human soul, the secret of our existence. Absolutely nothing of human greatness is ever accomplished without it. Not a symphony has been written, a mountain climbed, an injustice fought, or a love sustained apart from desire. Desire fuels our search for the life we prize. Our desire, if we will listen to it, will save us from committing soul-suicide, the sacrifice of our hearts on the altar of "getting by." The same old thing is not enough. It never will be.

Merry day after Christmas. .

So it's time for a new post I suppose..

I just got back today from a little Christmas " vacation" to Florida to see the family and celebrate Christmas..It was nice:) I was suppose to leave this past Saturday but because of all the fabulous snow up here I didn't get out until Monday.. which worked out great..

Speaking of the first snow of the season here in the city was amazing- it was so beautiful :) Really glad I was here to see it! Snow just makes NYC even more fun:D So anyways back to Florida.. got down there Monday and didn't have much time to do much aside from visiting with family.. sad I didn't get to see most of my friends this trip:( hopefully another time! I did get by to see dear Brooke and had some of her fabulous vegan muffins and food..mhmm.. yum:)!! Christmas was nice, I got Final Cut Pro 7 for all of you non- MAC users or anyone not into movie/editing its this sweet movie making program thats used for movies like Avatar, Benjamin Button.. and numerous others. It's some serious editing I'm so excited to use it- now I have to think of a movie to do so I can get editing:)

It's always really strange to me going home, It's like I feel outside myself or something.. like it's not where I fit, which I suppose is good since I live up here! I love being up here and Im really glad to be back here:) although it was raining today and my flight was slightly delayed but all is good now:)...

I can't believe it's almost 2010.. so many good things to come.. Looking forward to spending New Years Eve in Time Square this year to see the ball drop live.. thank God Time square is like 5 minutes from my apartment so after all the fun I can go home and sleep!! Then I'm going to take a train to D.C. January 1 I believe to meet up with a friend for my birthday January 3:) Then The Rachael Ray internship starts January 5 and then Stella Adler classes start January 11 along with online college. WOOH lots of stuff but I'm so excited:):) God is so good:)

Well Im out for now- going to play with my final cut for to many hours haha..

Hope life is treating you good:)

In Christ,

Kris

So it's been a while hasn't it?

I haven't really had to much time to update lately. Let me try to recap the last bit of life..

So I'd been going to Strasberg for acting but Im now going to be starting classes at Stella Adler, which Im really excited about, then doing college classes for communications online, and also the Internship. I got my schedule for the Rachael Ray Show internship and it's perfect.. I work Tuesdays, and Wednesdays ( which are both shooting days- woohoo) and also information about what I'll be doing their, so much stuff but so exciting!

I went By borders this week because Gene Simmons from Kiss was going to be there it was awesome he walked like right by me haha. I also went to a little holiday party at FFT and go to see Charlie- which was great:) Life is so great:)

I was suppose to fly out to Florida today, but we got our first snow in the city today!! Lots and lots of snow:) so much fun. ha I'm flying out Monday and then coming back Saturday:) So a couple of less days, which I don't mind- because I'm excited to get back up. 2010 is going to be a great year- I know it:) New years eve ball drop in Time square should be fun to:) crowded but fun..

haha anywho that's about all right now, loving life up here:) gonna relax watch movies and the lovely snow from my warm apartment:)

In Christ,

Kris

Its Snowing!!

So exciting! It feels all like Christmas now. Watching Christmas movies, watching the snow fall from my apartment, hot cup of tea, so gorgeous:) The city is all crowded and what not with tourist this time of year and it is pretty cold but being in New York City during Christmas time is worth it :)

Let's see - to sum everything up since my last post. Life has pretty much been amazing. Really loving the church I'm going to in the city, such a blessing:) School has been good and fun like always. Im starting 2 other college courses next semester and I think I'm still going to attend Strasberg, along with auditions, plus I got the internship at "The Rachael Ray Show" !!!- I am extremely excited, It seems unreal, I really have always admired Rachael Ray and the experience and the contacts I'll meet working on the show will be amazing. God is really opening up some doors and its really amazing. God is always amazing though even when things aren't so great! It is more fun though when things are great;) haha. I'm really looking forward to starting the internship- it starts January 4 - a day after my birthday ( best present ever!) -

Also me and a friend who lives in Virginia are planning to meet in Washington D.C. for a day of fun:) I'll take a train up there pretty early - excited about that:) Then going home December 19- December 26 for Christmas, then New Years Eve in Time Square woot woot. Man, life is so exciting if you allow it to be:) Life is an adventure- you really never know where you'll end up or what you'll end up doing, just enjoy life, live it for God and things will always fall into place I believe:)

I also went to this AMAZING vegan bakery downtown- "Babycakes" it was such a cute little bakery with some delicious desserts - all healthy/vegan. So yummy. ( of course nothing tops Brookes cooking:)} that was a fun little subway trip:) All the Christmas street markets are all set up for Christmas time (central park, union square) so I'm hoping to do a little Christmas shopping their this week! that seems to wrap things up. Going to watch some more Christmas movies:)

In Christ,

Kris

“Some pursue happiness - others create it.”

So I guess now its Christmas time...

Shocking to me that tomorrow is December 1. Seriously where did the time go? Just seems like everyday you get up and go through the day, do your think or whatever and now all of the sudden its December!

Life has been crazy lately. Some good days some bad days, just life I suppose. Thanksgiving was pretty good. It was the first thanksgiving I wasn't home with the family, which was a little weird. I went to the Macys Thanksgiving Day Parade which was really cool. I've always wanted to go after watching it on T.V. like every year. It was a lot of fun. Although movies and T.V. don't make the globs of people seem like a big deal, but let me tell you SOO many people and tourists.. But worth going:)

Now the city is getting all the Christmas window displays up, lights on the trees, and Christmas music playing in all the stores. All the little Christmas outside markets are out ( central park/union square) and the smell of Christmas is here:) Along with a lovely cold front coming in tomorrow:)

Tomorrow Im heading down to SOHO to go to Babycakes ( a vegan bakery) that I've been wanting to go to for a while, also SOHO is a pretty nifty place to walk around so that should make for a good day..

Still waiting to hear back about an internship and hoping for some good possibilities in the future:)

Hugs and Kisses to all!

In Christ,

Kris

Long week. I suppose..

Went back home to Florida for a quick 3.5 day visit- it was good I guess. I realize how much I really love living up here in New York though:) It was great to see some friends and family again. I can't say I did to much exciting since it is Fort Myers but just a quick change of pace is nice sometimes. (sometimes;)}

So back to the big apple and happy to be! I have an interview tomorrow for an internship I really want, so fingers crossed for that!

This is really short because I can't really think about anything else to post..

In Christ,

Kris

“There is nothing like returning to a place that remains unchanged to find the ways in which you yourself have altered.”

I think its important to always find the good in life. People have become so negative these days it seems{ I'm guilty of this to} I don't think its intentional, our minds just seem to gravitate to what's wrong or what could be better. I guess its somewhat understandable, if you watch the news or read the papers or just listen to people talking, you see tragedy and hear how unhappy people are with their relationships, jobs, basically what their life has become. When were born we obviously don't have a concept of all of these negative things, the problems of the world. We were innocent and its like as we grow up its hard not to get negative or hard towards life. It's hard but not impossible to be positive. " you can choose to see nothing as a miracle or everything".

Everyday brings challenging situations but God has already given us everything we need to deal with them, its our choice to use them. If I really put everything into perspective God has blessed everyone if we choose to accept it. He's given us himself, He walks with us through every difficult situation with us, He's conquered death, I think thats enough to be joyful about. Knowing that something bigger than I am has already figured out this life and I don't have to. Our reason in living isn't to always be happy or figure out this life, because frankly If we live that way we'll always end up being disappointed because life is hardly always a happy place and we aren't suppose to figure life out. Were suppose to serve the one who already has. If nothing else in this world seems to make you happy, knowing God and all He's done for us and how much he truly loves each of us should be enough. People have all of these "things" they want out of their life.. a relationship, a career, money, a place, we all have this perfect scene in our minds of "how our life should be" life is not about any of those things, its about a deep meaningful relationship with God, then all of the small details will fall somewhat into place and life will be ok. In my opinion it's about giving up the control we feel we have on our life. We really don't have control but somehow we've convinced ourselves that we do. We don't want to let go of the things we feel we control because were afraid if we do that everything will fall apart, but it isn't about letting go of these things its about giving them over to God.

I have a hard time staying up about things sometimes when times get slow or rough, I'm really trying to work on letting Go and letting God.. Its a mind thing. Our minds are so powerful that if we could use them to feel joy and happiness in any situation our result in life would be so much greater. The sky is always blue, sometimes gray clouds cover up the blue or storms blow through, but when the clouds clear and the storm stops the sky is still blue. There is always something to be happy about- God has blessed us to much to spend time being unhappy.:)

In Christ,

Kris

"God grant me the serenity to accept the

things I cannot change;

courage to change the things I can;

and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;

Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.

If we did the things we are capable of, we would astound ourselves.

Life has been a little busy these last couple of days, but today is a slow day. Actually I didn't have much to do at all. So I'm taking the day to relax! Let me try to recap the last couple of days.

I didn't do much of anything on Halloween, and their wasn't any trick or treaters since I live an an apartment. ha. I just watched movies and lounged around:) The rest of my weekend was pretty much the same- which was great!

Monday I had a print job to go to for the U.N. campaign, which was a lot of fun. Then I headed over to union square via subway- because it was a bit chilly! Had to pick up some things:) Also I've applied for something- that I don't want to jinx by chatter boxing about it until its a sure thing- so i'll just leave it at that by saying that Im excited about it and feel positive, but am trying to practice patience. - not a strong quality of mine, but I'm learning.

Its Great here, life is exciting.. Yes New York City is an exciting place, but I think that I've changed my outlook and attitude about life. So that its not the place that I am that makes life so great but my attitude about it. I feel really blessed and excited for the now and for the future. Life is really grand if you allow it. God has something so special for each person if you just open yourself up to him. Keep a positive and happy attitude about life, because it goes by fast!

This week is kind of up in the air.. things always seem to happen spur of the moment recently.. The only thing planned is really class hopefully more jobs and a response! Next Tuesday Im going to a friends for a dress event, a designer is coming to her apartment and bringing some of her clothes for a discounted price, that should be fun! Then Next Friday I'm going back to Fort Myers for a few days for a visit before Thanksgiving. I wanted to be here for the Macys Thanksgiving Day Parade:)

Looking forward to so much, gorgeous weather these days. Excited that Winter is just around the corner, and that the city will start dressing up like Christmas:) Can't wait to have a best friend come visit me in December so I can share the enjoyment with her:)

So this is it for now. I'll update again soon -

In Christ,

Kris

"What we see depends mainly on what we look for."

"such is the essential mystery..."

Let me start of by saying I didn't have a very restful night. Now let me explain why...

I had a headache and went down early fell asleep and what not.. Then at 1:30 a.m. some guy ( who I've never seen before) is knocking on my apartment door and ringing the door bell. I didn't answer because I didn't know him and its 1:30 a.m.. He did this for like 10 minutes. Then he jiggled on the door knob.. creepy i know. The creepy thing is I live in an apartment building with a doorman 24/7 very secure, and new.. so my thought is he was someone who lived there or was visiting drank a little to much and got off on the wrong floor thinking my apartment was his or a friend. None the less I hate not knowing, it bugs me. I'd really like to find out who this person was, since I don't appreciate being awoken in the wee hours of the morning.. So i let the front desk know and they were surprised and checking into it, so we'll see how this goes. .

I'm learning I need to be more patient. Hurry up and wait.. thats about how it goes:)

Class tomorrow, then the weekend:) woohoo!

Im going back to FL. November 14-17 im excited to see my pups and my parents and some friends...its been a while.. short trip but a little getaway. It might be strange being back there? hmm

this is it for now.. later:)

In Christ,

Kris

rain, wind, and dirty subways...

ah yes, what a lovely day it was. ha. Since I'm aiming on being positive I've chosen to look at this little day of mishaps as a funny thing. { its much funnier now that my tukus is parked on the futon with a warm blanket}. Let me take you back to this morning. Rain wasn't all to bad to begin, and the weather forecast promised that it was going to clear up as the day progressed. I think not. I had so many errands to get done today, plus an audition where you are suppose to look somewhat decent (obviously) So, i step outside into the pouring rain with a faulty umbrella (that cost me a whole $2.00) which is swept away by the wind and within minutes my whole body is drenched (shoes,socks,pants,shirt,backpack). Its cold, the wind is blowing my hair all over. blah. I make it down to 30th street (12 blocks) for my audition and pretty much look as bad as the weather but I went in did the whole sha-bang and left. I opted to take the subway since the weather was so horrid to union square to pick up a few things. I find that subways smell worse and are dirtier on rainy days.. maybe its because more people take them? Im a walker I hardly ever take the subway, but I do have that metro card tucked away in my wallet for days like this. So got my stuff and came back to the apartment took a hot shower and had a nap. Which was lovely:) The sunny side is that tomorrow is a promise of sun, and degrees in the 60's ... always love that.:)!

Everyone should be rooting for the YANKEES - if your not. shame on you!;)

In Christ,

Kris

“One day at a time...

this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.."

I think in general we all live in an imaginary world. Like we get up everyday and expect to have just another day. Life is so short, and no one is guaranteed even the next second. We get caught up in living in this unrealistic life, that we forget what's real. Then we hear of someone dying, even if you weren't close to the person who died, and it kind of brings you back to reality. It grounds you. Who are we to think that were guaranteed tomorrow? I really try myself to remember this and live life as if I only had today. Thats hard to do though because its almost like we don't believe. As much as we see it on the news, and read about it in the papers, death is like an unrealistic even that happens to "other people" .. not to be grim but we are the "other people" and one day someone will be reading about our passing in the paper, or possibly seeing it on the news. This isn't a post to be all depressing about life, perhaps just realistic. To make my point... No matter how long your life is, life is short what are you doing with your life? Who are you living for? What do you get up everyday for? Its easy to say that your living for something or to label yourself as a "christian" but what you do in your life says more that what you say about your life. That old "actions speak louder than words" is a statement I really believe in. Always look at what someone does because its so easy to say something but harder to live what you say. Im not pointing the finger at anyone, I have things that I need to work on and improve.

Its sad though how many people fall off the wagon. So many great people of God who go down the wrong road, and for what? Sex before marriage, alcohol, drugs? I have a hard time understanding people who are so selfish and uncontrolled to turn to these things that only bring sadness. God has given us so many blessings and to just go out and basically spit in his face by doing these things is horrible. Then its like people realize the bad there doing but can't stop.. I don't get that.. How bad is life going to have to get until someone wakes up and realizes there headed down the wrong path? Letting bad things or events dictate your life will ruin it.

Im sure some people will read this and assume I think I'm better than everyone or I'm judging but thats not it at all. Just some stuff i've been thinking about that I think is true. Basically don't waste your life. You only get one. . Its never to late to change. No one is ever to far gone to come back. You just have to turn around and start walking...

In Christ,

Kris

"Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life." Proverbs 4:23

Happiness is a journey, not a destination...

....

"for a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin- real life. but there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. at last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. this perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness. happiness is the way. so treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one."

...

You have been my friend. That in itself is a tremendous thing. I wove my webs for you because I liked you. After all, what's a life, anyway? We're born, we live a little while, we die. A spider's life can't help being something of a mess, with all this trapping and eating flies. By helping you, perhaps I was trying to lift up my life a trifle. Heaven knows anyone's life can stand a little of that.Charlotte,
"Charlotte's Web"

“Welcome every morning with a smile. Look on the new day as another special gift from your Creator, another golden opportunity to complete what you were unable to finish yesterday. Be a self-starter. Let your first hour set the theme of success and positive action that is certain to echo through your entire day. Today will never happen again. Don't waste it with a false start or no start at all. You were not born to fail.”

So I've been reminded recently how important it really is to have a positive attitude. A new friend of mine has really been a great influence and inspiration for me. I've realized that I say some things that are not positive, that I didn't even realize I was saying or do things that I didn't realize I was doing. Don't get me wrong Im not like a negative person, but life is such a gift that there is no time to be down or negative.

I feel so great about being here in New York City, its a new beginning another chapter. I've met some great people, positive people. There really can't be room for negative people in your life or at least mine, because it brings me down. Im so blessed to have met this inspirational friend. I've never met someone who understands me or inspires me so much. Im really fortunate.

I think everyone needs to have a vision. You have to see what you want and then make it happen. I feel like that. I have a vision. I know what I want, and now Im going to work hard to get that. Its hard but its an adventure. Life is never easy and their are always going to be negative things happening, but choosing the find the good in everything is what makes life so beautiful. I want to do that I want to be like that, like my friend. She is the most positive person I think i've ever been around, she lights up a room and everyone in it with her energy. Right now thats what Im working on being more positive, you have to see something yourself and believe it for it to become real. If i start to get negative feel free to stop me. Life is to short and days are to important to be negative. .

Life has been incredible:) Went to the Rachael Ray Show thanks to Brie, because I had tickets for the first one but they overbooked it. Wouldn't have been able to go if it wasn't for her! We had a blast it was so much fun. I honestly can say Rachael Ray is just how she seems down to earth like a friend you've known for years. The staff there were incredibly nice also which was good. For the snack of the day we got " cake balls" ha that was funny .. I kid you not that was the name:). It was the best show:) all around an amazing day:) This weekend will be a grand one:) Cheers!

Hope everyone is doing great:)

In Christ,

Kris

“And when it rains on your parade, look up rather than down. Without the rain, there would be no rainbow.”

So this week the weather has really kicked my but. First I'm frozen, then rained on, then blown away by the wind, then a lovely combination of all three came for a visit today. ha is this what they call "fall"? I think not. *chuckle* Of course the weather doesn't make me feel any differently about NY its the greatest city still with it's obnoxious week of terrible weather. Today supposedly was the last "bad weather" day.. still will be nice a cool and getting colder as winter comes but without the rain ( which is what i dislike so much). Of course on the last bad weather day as I'm walking to the gym trying to convince myself that it is not cold and I'm warm (when its actually 40 degrees,windy, and rainy) my umbrella is torn apart by the wind, and my plastic bag carrying my gym clothes decides it has a whole in it, leaving all of my gym necessities lying helpless on the wet, DIRTY N.Y. streets. as goes life I suppose. Perhaps they all came at the same time to say goodbye- thats what I'll tell myself at least. ( I just rambled about weather for quite a while didn't I? )

Now that I've been all dramatic and depressing about the past weather I'll go on to a more positive note:) Im so excited that one of my best friends is coming up here in December to visit me for a week:)! It is going to be so much fun having her here! I'm already making lists of everything we have to do and what not- nothing like planning ahead :D ...

Life has been grand though. Its great being all situated and at home now here. Just let me say also though most of you haven't heard of "Amys Bread" they are the sweetest people ever and have amazing bread:) I go there everyday and its one of my favorite things in this city! Im still trying to decide what I want to do for school next semester as far as acting and all goes, but Im waiting to see what happens before then. It's exciting though, life is leaving me at the edge of my seat. I know that God has something great planned I just have no idea what it is. Sometimes it scares me to really have no idea what the days hold, not to be able to "plan" anything (not that our plans ever go how we want) but it also gives me a feeling of excitement - like anything could happen at any moment. Thats what makes this city so different, I guess some may look at New York as dirty and crowded but I look at it like an adventure a place full of opportunities, you never know who your standing next to, what chance waits for you here. I love that. It makes me feel alive and blessed to be here:) Jesus will bless and amaze us if we let him.

That s all for now i'll try to post again but this week is packed full of craziness (school, rehearsal, RACHAEL RAY SHOW (WOOHOO), a million little things to get done) BUT on the upside it isn't suppose to rain:)

"Most human beings are driven to seek security and comfort. But there is another group that can only thrive on change and the unexpected of New York."

So I'm thinking that New York skipped fall and went right on to winter. I don't really consider 43 degrees fall do you? Maybe this is weathers way of doing me a favor, giving me time to prepare for actual winter, snow and what not. I've realized a couple of things thanks to this cold weather. 1. don't wear basketball shorts when its 43 degrees outside. 2. the clothes I have that I considered "warm clothes" are not. 3. walk fast. So I suppose I owe this weather a small thank you. maybe I'll be more prepared for when its actually freezing outside. maybe.

On another note. Life is going pretty good here. Classes are pretty good. I like them for the most part, some things I don't enjoy but I suppose thats how it is. People are nice and stuff- so its good:)

Its an odd thing . life. Its all pretty bitter sweet. I mean you never really know how its going to turn out. I guess that keeps things interesting. Its scary like hoping stuff works out and never really knowing.. frustrating at times but part of life. alright well off to class.. adios:)

In Christ,

Kris:)

. see everything yourself .

life has been an adventure.. but isn't it always?

Lets see here, i should work harder on keeping this updated. I don't even remember where I left off.

New York is amazing, the weather this past week has been gorgeous:) aside from that one rainy day we won't talk about;) School has been really great, loving my classes, meeting some awesome people:)

Everyday seems to bring something new. a new friend. a new place. a new adventure. its nice it's like everything is chaotic but settled its a whirlwind living in this city. There is truly no place like NYC. So many cultures all crammed together between buildings, getting up everyday going to work, taking the kids to school, striving to accomplish a dream. Its a great thing to people watch here, because everyone here has a story. As strange and different as this city is, I find that people everywhere share the same feelings in life. We all have something we want whether big or small and we get up everyday hoping to get it. Its just that NYC is on fast forward. moving fast and forward every second. I like that. I like fast paced. things get done quicker:)

Well life is good going to see another Jimmy Fallon taping and I finally got tickets to see the Rachael Ray show {you have absolutely no idea how excited this makes me 2 long years of trying!} for October:) My dogs are going to be up October 17! which im super happy about. Things are great. life is good. God is amazing:)

Thats all for now. more to come...

In Christ,

Kris

. see everything yourself .

a little update from the big apple:)

Lets see here. Classes are going pretty good. like all the learning and such:)

My sister came up Saturday for a quick visit{ she's leaving tomorrow} but it's been pretty fun:)

We went and saw Shrek on Broadway which was really good. I didn't think it would be the best but it really was pretty grand:) It was hilarious to which makes it good:) Then we went up to Central Park one afternoon, walked around the city and saw the sights. We went to Madame Tussauds which was awesome.haha:) Yesterday we went to a taping of the Late Night with Jimmy Fallon. It was AWESOME they are SO funny there haha. Going again for sure:) I also found out that after 2 years of trying to get tickets to the Rachael Ray show I finally did! woohoo! Then today it was kind of cold and windy so we went and saw "all about steve" a really great movie funny and a good message:) Life is good. Miss family and what not.. My mom is bringing my pups up October 17! yay! i miss them so much haha

Michelle leaves tomorrow, then I have class 1:30- 5:30:) alrighty well im out for now watching a movie:)

In Christ,

Kris

. see everything yourself.

“Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.”

alrighty so today.

<-- were awesome:

hm. Had to get up early early today because my mom had to leave at 3:15 on the shuttle to get to the airport to Fort Myers:( sad to see her leave... on the upside she's got to come back up in a couple of weeks to bring my dogs whenever the dog licenses decide to come in the mail..

So after my mom left I couldn't get back to sleep.. had a killer headache ALL night and morning.. so ended up eating some breakfast then hitting the gym..

Met up with Matt and we went over to Central Park and walked and chatted a bit which was fun. except for when the pigeon pooped on my pants. haha it wasn't to terrible though im just being dramatic. :p.

This week is kind of busy meeting up with someone I haven't seen since 4th grade tomorrow ! that should be fun to see him again over in Union Square! Then so far nothing thursday but Friday I have class from 1:30-5:30 then an extra class thing from 6-8 .. then Saturday class from 4-8 woooh. .

BUT

Next week should be pretty sweet.. Monday Matt and I are going to Late Night with Jimmy Fallon! fun stuff:) so excited!! I also got tickets for The Tyra Banks show in October.. this is such a fun city:) .

My school is awesome, friends are great{old and new:)} , loving this city God is good:)

good week:)

So this week has been a lot of fun:)

lets see starting off on Saturday I suppose.. Met up with a friend{matt} in Time Square and went to Ruby Tuesdays so he could eat, and hung out a little bit which was fun:) Then later that day my mom came in {so excited to see her agin} I got her some grub then we met up with Matt to see "Bye Bye Birdie" with John Stamos it was a really awesome play! Had a bunch of fun:) So saturday was an amazing day:)

The next few days i've been spending time with my mom.. Central Park, Union Square Farmers Market, and today the American Museum of Natural History which was awesome and apparently they were filming like Gossip Girl near by or something. lol! Sad mom is leaving monday:( but she'll be back up:)

Aside from the week.. I'm really excited being up here.. This city is so alive and full of opportunities.. Theirs always like moments of doubt ya know? Like wondering if you made the right choice about what you want to do and the move you made. I really don't think their is a right or wrong choice as far as future goes I mean every step forward that you take is just that a step forward. Its scary not taking the traditional path.. graduating high school then going to college and getting some type of degree {which is most certainly for some people and is a great thing to do} but, I know what I love and what I want and working hard at this and studying hard at this is what makes me happy. I need to start appreciating things I have and experiences that I've had.. I've gotten to see pretty much a piece of every part of this world and getting to live in different places and meeting different people is such an adventure in itself.. People worry so much about the little things we choose and do in this life.. and at the time they seem so monumental but they really aren't. The things in life that matter aren't things at all.. the relationship you have with Jesus is the most important thing , having people you love and people who love you and always finding something in life to be happy about.. Just thinking about that stuff today. I really love being here and what Im doing and going to do.. I really have no idea what will happen here or what this place will bring to me or for me but I know it will bring something and teach something its one stop full of adventure in my journey :)

In Christ,

Kris

{ see everything yourself}

" For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again. "

Dear Wednesday, thank you. You exceeded my expectation of being better than yesterday.

So today was a pretty eventful day:) Starting off let me say the weather was gorgeous and has been the past few days:) Breezy, light sun..lovely.

I'll start off with the morning, of course went to the gym which was nice, discovered that a women i thought was a little strange is actually one of the nicest people there and made me feel at home for the first time I had been there. Lesson 1 for me today: don't forget never judge a book by its cover. So worked out and what not, then I was taking my normal route back home down 9th avenue up 42nd when some creeper walks up to me and he has a plastic little knife in his hand and he says " hey, how old are you" i was just like "18" he thought i said 16 but I just kept walking so a few feet away another guy in normal clothes comes up to me flashes his badge { he's clearly an undercover cop} and says " hey what did he say to you" so i told him and moved on.. as I'm walking I see all these cop cars "profiling" the area. I just kept on walking back to my apartment.. guess we'll never know. Lesson 2 for me today: If you meet 1 really nice person in nyc you'll meet 10 creepers to make up for them . haha} so that was my morning. Eventful? indeed!

So after that I had to go to the Apple store to get my Ipod all synced with my computer on the way I walked by Fox Studios{love}, Radio City, The Wall Street Journal, and CBS any ways..as I'm coming out of their right across from the street which is Central park "Sex and the City 2" is filming with Sarah Jessica Parker right there! It was pretty cool to see all the camera, behind the scenes stuff, and Sarah Jessica Parker. I have to admit though I don't watch Sex and the City and I still wont but movie sets are pretty sweet no matter what movie it is. Lesson 3 for me today: Yes movie business has a lot of glamour but don't forget about all of the people behind the scenes making it work..it takes a lot to get these scenes shot, especially in the middle of NYC. I also met this really nice girl from Australia and we chatted a bit as we watched the filming. After that I went over to Wholefoods and scored some fresh Vegan Gingersnap cookies.. today was most definitely my day. Then got back to the Apartment where i preceded to unpack my groceries, take a hot shower, put some laundry inn, and now I'm sitting on my comfy futon watching the beautiful New York sky and a good movie.. life is good. God is better:) Tomorrow I'm headed over to Lee Strasberg Institute to put in for some acting classes and get some vegan yogurt and do Union Square. . Lesson 4, final lesson of the day: i love this city, I forget it sometimes when I'm in the middle of the hustle and bustle and not to mention tourist{ no offense}, yes this city has dirty parts, some dirty people, and not everything is perfect but this city is unlike any other city in the world. after all it is New York City:)

So I haven't done a good job of keeping up on this blog, but life has just been crazy lately! Everything is set up and going great here in the big apple:) Im starting classes at an acting studio in the city mid September and doing online college courses { fun stuff} so Life is moving along here.. the apartment is awesome, its so cozy and home like i really love it now:)

I will admit I miss my family and my home a bit, but my mom and maybe my dad is coming up September 12 with my dogs. SO EXCITED! Were going to see Bye Bye Birdie with John Stamos, gonna be awesome:)

So im just adjusting to living life in New York, its so different than Fort Myers, but amazing:) I miss my gym a lot .. I joined a gym up here but its not the same. haha. no its all good:)

Im off to watch a movie and relax and wait for laundry to finish{ thank God i have a washer/dryer in the unit:D}

In Christ,

Kris

this city sounds like jazz...

SO i haven't really done a great job of keeping this thing updated. Life has been so crazy these past few weeks. Finally up in NYC for good. everything is set up in the apartment and done. I even went and got groceries. haha kudos to me:P

I have to say that I didn't think I would miss home like I have. Don't get me wrong I love this city, this life, the start of something new.. but theirs a piece of me that misses how everything was. Knowing that nothing will ever be exactly like it was. It's really made me appreciate the people and things in my life. Its exciting living here its new. different. strange in a way. I pretty much have everything set up here.. found a gym that i go to every morning. I have to say though I miss my gym in florida so much, it was like a second home. . Im excited for this to start things to get going.. letting go of some of the old and embracing the new. not moving on but forward:) I can't wait for my parents to come up and bring my dogs :) I miss them so much.. Plus were going to see "Bye Bye Birdie" on broadway with John Stamos. so excited:)..

For me life is continuously being hungry. The meaning of life is not simply to exist, to survive, but to move ahead, to go up, to achieve, to conquer.
Arnold Schwarzenegger -

and I love this city....

So these past 3 days have been so stressful/exciting/nerve racking gosh. I moved up here to the big apple:) Love the apartment but theirs been so much stuff to get done! My mom came up with me to settle me in and we haven't stopped since the plane touched down{ she's actually putting a table together, which i need to go help her with right now} Im finishing up some laundry { also loving the fact that this apartment has a washer/dryer in the unit} .. We've hit some road bumps with furniture and hooking up stuff but thats how it goes. Today we did have a few minutes to hit the farmers market in union square..when i say a few minutes i mean like 5. haha. New York City is amazing. I have to say though I didn't realize how much I would miss things in my life in florida. I knew I would miss my gym but man I really miss it. The gym here is 5 star but the treadmills i hate so i think Im going to buy one like the kind my gym has.. because running is really important to me:).

So the apartment is pretty semi all put together still getting a few things done. I've already unpacked all of my stuff and put everything away. Im going to be flying back to Florida tomorrow for a couple of weeks because I'm not sure about my parents schedule and I want to bring my dogs up soon, plus I have a couple of things I need to bring up and I don't want my mom to have to stress with stuff.. my parents have done so much for me:).. SO i'll be home tomorrow and if I didn't get to see you before i left we should do something!

alrighty well out from NYC:) home sweet home..

8/3/2009. moving. 2 days. so weird.

“Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves... for growing up.”

15 days.

I didn't realize until I packed all of my stuff up how much I would miss my parents, my gym, friends, and i suppose my life here. I know change is for the best and is necessary to grow, but this is my life and it has been for 6 years and it seems strange to think of this chapter of my life ending. Yes a new one starting the future, its like the first step to really having to grow up. Living on my own, going to school, trying to get into my career and have an accomplished life. All of these responsibilities that are exciting but are responsibilities none the less that my parents have always worried about or taken care of fall to me. Just me. I mean its my future. I have to start dealing with "grown up" things. I know this is right I know this is what God wants for my right now. This is a good change, but this is a change, and change no matter what is hard. I started to think how sad it was that I was going to miss so many things, but think how sad it would be to not miss anything.. So many kids don't enjoy, appreciate and love there parents how I do. I really love spending time with them, they are my best friends. the people in this world that Im closest to:) I have a blessed life of health and great people around me, and sometimes there are not so great days but God has given me so much. Im looking at this positively Im glad I have things, and people and memories to miss.. what would life be without them? The days are going by faster and soon enough I'll have moved, things will be different..  but life is sweetest because it never comes again. Start enjoying and savoring every minute of everything in life because it does only come once and is constantly changing, you can't stop it but you can enjoy it:)

"Forget them, Wendy. Forget them all. Come with me where you'll never, never have to worry about grown up things again".

a new day..

So I've decided to start a new blog use to do Livejournal but i like this better. A new journal for a new start. Moving to NYC August 3 so this will be a way to write/post photos and stuff about my life my adventure, travels, and just everyday stuff :) so if you want to read it feel free:)